We’re officially past Christmas and New Year’s, and I’m officially done with the first draft of my next October release, and the skies are relentlessly gray. For someone with bipolar (II) disorder who uses the holiday season to hide from the darkening days, I am officially in the dreary months, or those months where I’m at risk for depression.
I’m tired all the time right now, and I’m weepy. I feel bogged down by a pretty normal workload. The answer to the question “What am I looking forward to?” is “A nap”, but there seems to be no time for that. I might nap on Wednesday. I have meetings all afternoon this week. On Friday I have an appointment in large letters: “NATHAN”. I do not remember who Nathan is or why I’m meeting with him. Since it’s in all caps, it must be important.
What I need to do is get some strategies in place to help boost my mood:
- A sun lamp. I don’t know if these really work, but they give me a sense of control
- Naps when I can, even if this means while sitting under the sun lamp drinking coffee.
- Things to celebrate. (I need help making this list)
- Cat therapy
- Possibly a phone call to the doctor
More coffee and booze are not on this list, as these will make my mood worse.
I’ll keep you posted.